Monday, August 31, 2009

How True?

Is it true that the better off (and more fun) your personal life becomes, the reverse is true for your love life? Oh goodness me, I've never had so much fun in my personal life in the last three years! You can only guess where my "love life" is going.

To the dogs. To the DOGS I tell you!
Not THAT dog!

It's true. Despite the hectic-crazy-crappy-lifeless schedule we keep at work, my ETL team still has the time to bond over food, badminton, travel and other crazy stuff. Similarly, I still have wall-climbing sessions with the Delivery team (I do hope to drag them into the other stuff ETL does).

On the flipside, things aren't so hot on the amore side of the fence.

Oh woe is me...

It hasn't been the same in the past... two or three months. Sure, I've tried and tried again. As someone said "Kaya yan! Subok lang nang subok!" But what the hey, sometimes I feel all that trying has been in vain. Is it coincidence (Dada would say "of course it's not!"), is it fate, is it destiny (ugh, Serendipity)? Or is it just that neither of us has the same time to spare as we used to?

Hmmm... text KASS (space) your answer and send to 1234567890. Open to Globe, Smart, Sun, Talk n Text, TM, Red Mobile, Bayan Wireless, PLDT wireless and Kawawang Phoneless subscribers!

Hemingway, I have to catch some Z's. I haven't quite recovered from the Corregidor Escapade and today wasn't exactly as restful as I would have wanted it to be. So goodnight!

P.S. To you: "Just realize what I just realized, then we'll never have to wonder if we missed out on each other..." Let's not let this chance pass us by, ok? I don't want to wonder for the rest of my life... ♥

Sunday, August 30, 2009


Went to Corregidor with my team yesterday. Too busy pa to do a full post so access this album via my Facebook na lang >> CS2 goes Daytripping

Ciao for now!

P.S.... Namimiss na kita... Sana Tuesday na!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

Ponder THIS...

"One grows distant from another not because of indifference, but because of fear. There's the fear that the hurt gets greater as one gets closer; a recognition of the tendency to fall deeply, and consequently drown in a quicksand of stupid irrationalities. Sometimes, what drives one away is not the absence of emotion, but the overwhelming presence of it"


Is this what's driving you away? Or am I just assuming too much? Maybe I was wrong, maybe nothing's driving you away. Maybe you were never HERE in the first place. Maybe there was never anything there after all...

Cross-posting from FB:

1 What's your latest addiction?
♥ Any and all activities that punish my body and make me sweat. No, sex is not one of them *lol*

2 What are you listening to?
♥ Be OK - Ingrid Michaelson

"Open me up and you will see
I’m a gallery of broken hearts
I’m beyond repair, let me be
And give me back my broken parts"

3 How late did you stay up last night and why?
♥ Until...uh....wait, I haven't slept in the past 33 hours. 0_o

4 Who were the last 2 people to text you?
♥ Paolo and Jovi

5 Any plans for tonight?
♥ Dinner with Ceccz and Rei. Go home to Nikka to take her for a walk and some pooch quality time

6 Who were you with last Friday night?
♥ SECRET =) Basta I was happy with the people I spent Friday with

7 Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 months from now?
♥ Depende sa kanya... *lol* Ayoko nang magsalita!

8 What radio station do you listen to the most?
♥ NU Rock 107.5 and URock 105.9

9 When was the last time you cried?
♥ I guess last week. Lost. Dazed. Confused. Tired. What can I say? =P

10 Have you ever talked to someone when they were high?
♥ Oh hell yeah! It wasn't a pretty sight!

11 What does the fifth text in your inbox say?
♥ Jovi: "Ahehe tnx. Out na video sa MVT and MYX. San yung Urbandub event? May event ang UG tomorrow night, baka dun ako pumunta pag sinipag"

12 What movie you seen last?
♥ HP6? I hated how bitin it was! Grrrr...

13 What’s your outfit right now?
♥ Black mid-thigh length stretch dress and salmon-colored footless tights with black and white patterned 3-inch wedge sandals
(opo, walang 14-15)

16 What were you doing at 11 pm last night?
♥ Walking Nikka outside, against the vet's advice. Harhar...

17 Who was the last person you texted to last night before bed?
♥ I haven't gone to bed so... the last person I texted before I "slept" was Dada. Hoping she was ok.

18 Will you be driving in a year?
♥ In my new car? Hopefully yes, if all things fall into place as I planned. Excited to get my Foxtrot (yeah, may name na sya kahit wala pa sya saken)!

19 Is there anything that you are craving right now?
♥ Bacon waffles with whipped butter. Does going to La Union to surf count? That's a craving too, right? *lol*

20 When and where did your most memorable "hug" take place?
♥ Aaahhhrrr... Sometime last week, very early in the morning somewhere down South. My lips are sealed, though =)

21 Single or taken?
♥ Single is sexy...I'm not! Not THAT way anyway! *lol* Taken... for granted?

22 Have you ever started a sentence with "No offense, but"?
♥ Hell yeah... though, most of the time I skip the "No offense" part and go ahead to the offensive part. *lol*

23 Do you drink tea?
♥ Yeys! Bring it on! Tropical Passion from CBTL, I heart you!

24 Have you ever been arrested?
♥ Nope and I hope I never will be

25 Have you rode in someone else's car today?
♥ SECRET! =D Mahirap na...

26 Have you made a mistake this past week?
♥ Of course, I'm sure. I am but human.

27 Who was the last person you texted?
♥ This morning? Paolo, to confirm if we're going to Abi's wedding together. Ayoko magdrive... umagang umaga!

28 Are you happy with your life right now?
♥ Hmmm... yeah... I'm happy with the new things (and people) I'm involving myself in (with). =D

29 In the past 72 hours have you been under the influence of?
♥ Insomnia. Sleeplessness. Rambling thoughts. No, not drugs.

30 What's the connection between you and the last person you texted?
♥ My best friend of 14 years. =) Aymishu, PVP!

31 Do you think someone will repost this?
♥ Most def!

32 Do you miss someone?
♥ Of course... but I won't tell you who! Mahirap na...

33 Do you think the person that you miss, misses you too?
♥ I sure hope so, it'll be too sad if that's not the case...

Tala: Mukha ka nanamang tanga dyan... tama bang magbasa ng chat history? Kahit magbasa ka nang magbasa hanggang lumuwa ang mga mata mo, hindi sasagot yan. Hindi sya sasagot dahil hindi niya alam. Eh kung sabihin mo kaya sa kanya at nang magka-alaman na?

Star: Hindi pwede. Hindi pa ngayon ang tamang panahon.

Tala: Kung hindi ngayon, kelan pa

Star: Hindi ko alam. Next year? Two years from now? Never? Baka nga never.

Tala: Bakit naman

Star: Kasi baka mali ang basa ko sa mga senyales. Baka wala naman palang kahulugan lahat ng mga ginawa at sinabi nya.

Tala: Pano mo malalaman kung hindi mo tatanungin?

Star: Ayokong mauna. Palagi na lang akong nauuna palagi... At nauuna lang din akong masaktan palagi. Nakakasawa na.


"We need to talk" >> the four MOST dangerous English words.

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Random Thoughts On Another Sleepless Night (Morning?)

SKL na nababaliw na ata ako sa kakaisip sa kanya. Hindi na tama ito. May meaning ba ang "Text ka pag nakauwi ka na" o ang "Text ka pag nasa bahay ka na"?

SKL na ala-una na. May pasok pako ng 7AM. Hindi ako makatulog. Iniisip ko siya. Iniisip ko work. Iniisip ko ang ngayon. Ang bukas. Ang kahapon.

SKL na ayoko nang mag-isip.



Thank you for the fantastic weekend. You have no idea of the effect you have on me. But if it were up to me, I won't let you know. Not yet, anyway.




You push me to try bigger things than I am used to. You encourage me to try and just laugh at myself should I fail.

It was you who said "At least na-try mo".

It was you who said "Cool ka lang. Hindi mo problema ang problema ng buong mundo."

It was you who said "Ok lang yan. Kakayanin natin ito."

Why aren't you the one I'm spending my time with?!?



When a person's influence practically dictates your playlists... you're in big trouble! Be still, my heart!


My hands are searching for you
My arms are outstretched towards you
I feel you on my fingertips
My tongue dances behind my lips for you

This fire rising through my being
Burning I'm not used to seeing you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

My hands float up above me
And you whisper you love me
And I begin to fade
Into our secret place

The music makes me sway
The angels singing say we are alone with you
I am alone and they are too with you

I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

And so I cry
The light is white
And I see you

I'm alive, I'm alive, I'm alive

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healing

Take my hand
I give it to you
Now you own me
All I am
You said you would never leave me
I believe you
I believe

I can feel you all around me
Thickening the air I'm breathing
Holding on to what I'm feeling
Savoring this heart that's healed

----- "All Around Me" - Flyleaf


I wish I could be every little thing you wanted...all the time. Tang*na mo, ang hirap mo ispelingin! Hayuf!

Good morning, world...

Sunday, August 16, 2009

The Biggest Lie

Do you know what the biggest lie of all time is? Read on.

"I had/have no choice."

B*llsh*t. One ceases to be human when one ceases to have a choice. Yes, as human beings we always have a choice. There is always at least ONE choice available to us in any given situation at any given time. It's just that the available choices are sometimes not favorable for us, so we choose to bluff our way out of our choice by claiming to have no choice.

What the... Even choosing not to choose is already a choice.

What's with this post? Well, I thought there was such a thing as "freedon of speech" and "freedom of expression". You know, benefits of being part of a democracy or some phony showcase thereof. Anyway, I just said I was pro-choice and that SexEd should be part of the elementary and high school curriculum.

Why? I believe that a human being who makes an informed choice ultimately chooses better. A human child who does not learn "things" from her parents or her school will learn it from other media: TV, radio, print, Hollywood, the porn industry, her friends... heck, even music! So if my daughter/son is expected to make a choice for her/himself, she/he may as damn well be informed on the choice she/he is to make.

Makes sense? Apparently not.

I have been called (among many things): a "female dog" (that's Nikka, not me!), a slanderer (what the?), a bigot (huh?), a sl*t (slot machine? Sa casino yun diba?), and a p*rn hugger (as opposed to a tree hugger, maybe?).

Cool it, people. What's with the hot heads? Dahan-dahan lang! Tandaan, habang iniipit ay lalong umiinit. Habang pinipigil, lalong nang-gigigil.



"But that's not an invitation; that's all I get
If this is communication, I disconnect...
...and I hold the record for being patient
With your kind of hesitation...


On the subject of choice... I choose not to choose since a choice is not called for. We can be as we are, we can do as we did, we can be as we were. No questions asked. None yet anyway.

As I said on Facebook: "You have no idea of the effect you have on me. But if it were up to me, I won't let you know. Not yet, anyway."

The perfect time will come... and it will be when both of us least expect it.

I know it will be perfect when the time comes. It will be worth the wait.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

RIP F.Pres Cory Aquino

It's all over the Net and the news. She joined her Creator at 3:18am today.

Rest in peace, madamme. This country's loss is great.